Oldness!!

sorry about the lack of blogging!!!any hoo!!
lately i've been down, i mean i should be excited as today it is 9 weeks until Christmas, which i love!!but that means that in 9 weeks i will be 18 and i am petrified about being old!!!not that 18 is old, but everything that comes with it!! next Christmas i might be in a different part of the
country with people i dont know yet and that upsets me a little!!
when i was younger, Christmas was spent with the whole family and i loved it, sharing toys with my cousins, who i now dont see much because they too have grown up and one by one now have new families of their own!!
it hasn't been the same since my nan died and my auntie was put in a home as their house was the central place where we would all go, but now i only see some people because its their birthday and i miss them.
it's also upsetting as it also means that college is almost finished, it sounds silly but there is only a few months left and they are flying by!! its sad because i have made some amazing friends there and i love them all so much that it is so sad that we will all be apart this time next year!!!
So i have had my little rant and feel no better about my age, but i plan to enjoy the time i have with my friends, have the best party for my birthday with the amazing friends i have and i am sorry for being so depressing!!!
Hopefully i will write again soon and make blogging more regular!!!
Love to you all!
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